Less than bubkiss...

I understand that Valentine's Day is a commercial holiday, full of commercial crap and fluff and it does not mean that much in reality.  And I was ok with getting bubkiss...but I managed to get less than bubkiss.  It's kinda important in our relationship, because 14 years ago yesterday was when we started dating.  3 years and 2 days ago, our children were conceived (in a petri dish, but still)... So it wasn't so much Valentine's Day, that I needed chocolates or flowers or some grand gesture.  Even just a simple, "Hey Happy Valentine's Day!" or even a mention of the past 14 years of our life...when he had been talking about V-day nonstop for weeks... but nothing.  Less than nothing as I say- because he told me what he going to do but didn't do.  He was going to go to Cold Stone and get a cake - but did you know the closest one to work is in a mall, and that's just silly.  And the one closest to our house is also in a mall.  Ok but you went out and bought lotto tickets for your coworkers becasue they had a work party...you couldn't have grapped a chocolate bar, or some cheesy plastic rose - just to say hey, thanks for the last 14 years. 

Hey he made me dinner right? Never mind it was his might because yesterday was teh day he decided to start carpooling with his boss, so I had to do drop off and pick up with the kids.  So he made quesadillas....and frozen braised beef tortelloni...because those sound appetizing together.  He asked me where the flowers came from (2 carnations and a small box of chcolate hearts). I told him the people at work at least gave me a valentine.

So not even a mention all day, not an I love you - nothing.  So I go to bed, stewing a bit.  And he says - "are you mad I didn't put some status on facebook?" (In reference to the small token I did that morning, thanking him for the past 14 years, etc).  I said, "Hey, it would have been something." and I went to sleep.  This morning he acts like his same old self.

Is it wrong that for 2 seconds I was hoping you would recognize me. Recognize the woman I am. The mother of your children, who works full time, does pretty much 85-90% of the work around the house, and does about 75% of the taking care of the kids.  Was I that deluded to think that I might warrant some sort of thank you, or even I love you. I guess so.  And he honestly has no idea how much that hurt.