Hubby started his brand new fantastic job...and the first day, he was excited, happy, hopeful. Yesterday, day 2, he was deflated, anxious, apprehensive. He is freaking out because it's his first week and already he has to work Satruday. It is the busy time of the month. He is annoyed because he has to work to help the others on their tasks, but no one helps him on his - he is essentially a one man team. Knowing him the way I do - i.e. better than he knows himself - I know that he is freaking out because it's a BIG change, it's something totally new and he still has no idea what he is doing and it's bigger responsibility. I KNOW that once he learns his way around and knows what he is doing, he is going to like his job, if not love it. Right now, he is just having a pseudo - buyers remorse. And he is scared.
He doesn't do scared well. He thinks I am a control freak, but at the same time, he is just as bad. And he is at the whim of others for training and learning the ropes. Once he is past this, I am certain he will be fine. Plus he knows the twins are a handful, so I know he feels bad leaving me alone with them. At the same time, while I wish he could be there, I am not the first woman to have to handle multiples alone. I mean how many single moms of twins are there, probably a ton. I know I can do this, it just takes an adjustment. Something neither of us are good at.
In the meantime, I am trying to keep him positive, trying to stay supportive, and trying to make him understand what is really going on in his head. It's hard because to see the 180 degree shift is hard. But I know it's just the adrenaline going away and being replaced with a general feeling of, "What the f--- did I just do?" His anxiety is giving me anxiety..but at the same time, in my head I know it IS the right decision/choice. It's just an adjustment period. I just hope I can convince him of that!
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