So I am lucky to have my "twin"kies...I know that, and I thank the Lord every day that he brought them to me, that we were able to overcome infertility. And yes, it does make the sting of another pregnant person become less.
That being said, those damn fertiles, able to just decide, "Hey let's have another baby," and then BAM! They are pregnant. And it's all just a happy joke. I am happy for them, I genuinely am, but I can't lie. It still stings a bit...I mean, I had the Mirena put in to make sure nothing accidentally happens, but seriously, we had unprotected sex about a billion times over the 10+ years we were together before the babies...and not one single positive pee stick. Chances of it happening once the Mirena is removed are slim. And I don't even know if I want more kids. I am pretty sure, I never want to go through all the reproductive nightmares again. No more shots, hormones, etc. Which of course means that we pretty much are done having kids.
I have my babies, yet I am still totally jealous of the fertiles and their ability to procreate and just reproduce so carefree. To just say, I want a baby and there it is. It just not fair to the rest of the worlfd, trying so hard to have bebies, and nothing. Or having to go through so much to get them. Whereas with others, it is as simple as making supper int he kitchen. I don't get it.
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