First a rant...

Ok so first I am going to post a bit of a rant.  I have this "friend" from way back when.  Love(d) her dearly... always been supportive (from a distance because we live 300 miles apart), total facebook friends, used to be friends in high school - had her at my kids 1st birthday party even!

At that party, she was with a guy - a great guy. Eventually she ended up pregnant - they broke up, accroding to her, him not supportive at all. Found out through another friend, SHE stopped taking the pill and never told him. Also SHE beat the crap out of awesome dude. He was hesitant to parent with her, she apparently was crazy after all, and voiced his opinion to terminate said pregnancy.  She did not and continued with the pregnancy. Totally supported her (though didn't know all the details until partly through the pregnancy, but whatev, was supportive). At the same time, when awesome dude came around he came all the way around and wanted (wants) to be part of baby dude's life.  She has made his life hell and made it difficult for him to do so.  Regardless, that's their problem. I support both of them (though not really friend with him, totally support him for joint custody). 

All that aside, she made the decision not to circumsize her son, and to exclusively breast feed.  Good for her, again I support her choices.  They are her choices to make.  She has no job - food stamps and welfare support her.  Ok fine but she just finished a surgical tech program and has a marketable skill that is easily employable.  Again, her decisions, I can deal and shut up.  Yet now I am tempted to delete her as a friend on facebook because she has now become a soap box woman.  All her activity is now centered around talking about how circumscion is abusing children and the people who choose to do so are barbarians. And that people who use formula and don;t want to breast feed in public are evil.  Her son is 12 weeks old and she has become some expert on these topics in that time.  I am all for her having her own opinion and all...and she has never and I don;t think would ever, publicly attack another woman - but I circumscized my son (well the surgeon did) and I used formula. I stopped breast feeding about 12 weeks in for a number of different reasons.  Needless to say her rants are what made mothers like me suffer for weeks with postpartum depression in order to breast feed my twins.  She is the reason people like me feel like less of a woman.  And again, I support her choices - she is free to choose whatever, but is it wrong of me to be upset that she spouts this crap? Isn't this what is wrong with the whole debate to begin with?

Ok, I think that is the end of my rant.  In other news, we are under contract on a house. Our inspection is tentatively set for tomorrow and I still have not heard if it's a final and absolute go so I am nervous. And we found a family that wants to rent our house. And my family is in the process of arriving for the kids second birthday party this weekend. And I have to sit in on interviews for a new position in my office tomorrow.  I think I might lose it at any moment... oh and I have a wicked cold!!  Should be a fun week?!

scared, nervous, excited...

It seems the planets might actually be aligning for us.  We found a house we loved...it was out of our price range.  We gave them a lowball offer.  They verbally countered with a bunch of ridiculous conditions and an amount a tad higher than we wanted to go.  Once my agent talked to theirs and their agent pounded some sense into them, the removed pretty much all their conditions when they submitted their written counter...but stayed at the same price, which when I say is a tad over our price, I mean literally...$2000 over. We can live with $2000 over, since it's still technically in our approval range.  And we still get our inspection and the ability to come back pending its results.

We are going over on Saturday to walk through again, and do a closer look...before making a final decision to accept.  OMG? Did we just get the house of our dreams?

And now we wait...

We found the perfect house.  Perfect.  It's more than enough room for my family to live in, and host holidays, and even have my parents move in, if and when they ever need to.  It would be my forever home.

We got approved for about 87% of the costs... our mortgage would cover 87%.... and my parents agreed to help us come up with the down payment...but that amount just got a bit bigger than we anticipated.... smaller than our worst fear, but bigger than what we originally thought.... so now we present the options to my parents...and we wait to find out how much they can swing.... and if it's too much, then we are done for now.  I can't take this again... we will wait at least another year to even start looking.  Part of me hopes my parents say it isn't doable for them, because they have given me everything I ever could have dreamed of in my life....and I feel like a shlub and a horrible person for even asking... and part of me prays they say yes, because it would give me a place that they could come to anytime they needed. 

So that's where we are....and now we wait.